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My story in eposodes, "This can have happened to anyone".



For 3.5 years from May 2005 to November 2008, I lived with my family in Canada, I became a different person, love made me much better, I came to Russia, religious society could not accept me, as I became, resurrected, perfect, Lady ..


  • We are forgiven, 
  • We are baptized, 
  • We are born again,
  • And yet we are still there,
  • We carry out His body, 
  • His spirit,His soul, 
  • His law in our chest..


In Russia, I would not have felt so much love because I had it only in my loins.


I got married because I just wanted to have children.


The husband's heart was closed. In the previous marriage, he suffered heavy emotional losses.

in marriage, i still continued to be lonely ..


In Canada, my soul fined her brightroom


My childhood unconquered


I was baptized in the "narthex", a house on the territory of the Church, something like a bathhouse.

 I remember. dark walls, lit candles, priests investments, I'm in my underpants, my hands are folded, shy, I'm about 8 years old, brother Maxim is about 3 years old. Spiking, that such a baptism could have the opposite effect. Then we went out, and I looked at the Church, it was the tall white bell tower and spire.


"My mother"  I loved her very much.


She  was very strong, but why did she have so much rage against me? her condition: work, Bing, husband. She comes home from work tired, there is a mess, a wave of irritation, brings anger, and there is a cry, "war".


Mother without love,

war or slave, we are still children of war ..


Where to get blissful calmness, her heart is brought up on other ideals, "you must to do it" But how to ask, and request was fulfilled with joy? It is only through the love of Jesus Christ.


There were times of the USSR.

The church was weak.

Their faith is conscience, truthiness, honor...

and love, they have always waited...


They did not go to the temple, for them the temple is a priests candles, icons, darkness, ritual, fear.


And if something was needed in the church, the priests did not welcome the labor class.

Baptized? Baptized, here's a candle.


They placed a candle near of the icon,

The candle tel the story, The candle prayed,The candle crying trembling

Then faster flame, the stronger the prayer


For  Orthodox church the USSA was an enemy since thirties


By Revolution,   

We built our own new world, Who was nothing, became everything,

We turned it upside down


And they began to build a workers-and-peasants ' country

The favor of Heaven was needed,

So that it was not only, out of duty but out of love


The leader was a Proletarian,

He had to pray,

But  the priests prayed only


We were not loved, by the Haven

Adolf came to occupy the territory

Set your own rules,

Which ones we don't know,

Of the two evils, we chose the greater one,

and we did not collect flowers for Adolf..


But Russia is still suffering from the Second World War,

A woman in Russia, still "consumable materials"


We have a great debt to the Motherland,

No one oppresses the labor class,

Free medicine,

Free education,

Lets live and  enjoy,

and they do not succeed,

instead of prayer, food only,

Just the food of the earth helped them,

They did not know the  food of Haven


Wanted justice, heaven on earth,

but strong rage, instead of strong love


But the newspaper "truth' was subscribed, that it is good that is bad they know, they saw where black is, where white is, there is a conscience."...........


My father was a Proletarian, the priests did not even touch his heard  and did not give  a cross to His mind

Work, home, and yet, he very tired and wants to watch news program "Time'


my mother made me costumes for the holidays, she wanted me to be the best and, of course, loved me too


Love-the movies we watched,  their heroes were our ideals


As a child, I always loved someone. With love, it was brighter in my environment, love helped me to live.


I was engaged in athletics, javelin throwing, I had a lot of physical strength


I was taken to a sports boarding school, but sports injuries, it was painful to throw


In 1990, i had an operation, "replaced the cruciate and lateral ligaments" of the left knee joint , with NATURAL ones


I got married in December 1996, and I wanted to have children.


The husband's heart was closed. In the previous marriage, he suffered heavy emotional losses, but  may soul continued to be lonely


He was not loved in his family, because of  his has not a lot of money but has   excellent education


I did not know the love of his heart, my soul continued to be lonely.

But Igor suited me because he didn't drink or smoke


He lived with parents and sister's family. Only 6 people in a two-room apartment. I lived in a room in a communal apartment


I was 26 years old, a physical education teacher.


He is 30 years old, an entrepreneur, who on the Internet, published an electronic computer magazine "Classifik-info"


I knew that friendship is the main thing for keeping family, I helped him earn money, and between us there was interest.


My husband had only such love for me


In August 1997 they gave birth to their son Stanislav

In December 1998, they gave birth to a daughter, Yulia


In 2000, we got married in church (because within he hated me) I didn't have a university degree


He working system administrator


In October 2001, we organized a company for refilling cartridges, I am the general director, I help him get a little more money, Then I was loved only with money.


I didn't know what it meant, home for the wife ,

Was out of the house, was not a wife

I loved my  job .. refilled cartridges, looked for customers


The organization began to bring a small income, having two small children, IT is DIFFICULT.


In 2005 they moved to Canada




I had to find a job to buy a house or apartment.



We began to visit the Orthodox Church on Sundays.
priests , we will be married,
I was surprised; I said that we were already married.



In 2006, she entered the retraining courses,


I entered a school where I was offered a choice of training in the most required professions.


I studied to become a system administrator for cisco, a large load of Books in English. There were information connections, Cisco enters into my mind and the teacher's love and interest in the subject. Quite recently, I told myself that I would never love anything again.

And so his love and interest in the subject is on my heart and for HIM

But Oh, these information connections  I passed the exams with a BANG


Very deeply struck in the heart, the arrow of love, was filled only with love. I couldn't breathe


I even wrote a letter and said - I love you.

But he said, I'm sorry, don't, and I went to the Temple. 


Я очень переживала ,  пришлось оставить школу , сидела дома с детьми

Stan 2 grade,  Yulia 1 grade


 And here is love, in my heart, I have changed, I have become much better


After this incident, I always prayed, read the Gospel, fasted, and did physical exercises


After the prayer, it became better, So my love for the person passed into the heavens abode of Jesus Christ


My soul  has become His «bride-room»

Jesus, the giver of those who ask, give me a cloak for my sins. 

Jesus, the acquisition of those who seek, dress my soul. 

Jesus Opener of those who speak, open my heart that is persevered.

Jesus Redeemer of sinners, cleanse my iniquities.

Jesus, son of God, have mercy on me.



And the world turned upside down for me, I felt that

I  beloved by Heaven

 and it was a great gift to me.


I should have prayed to remember and feel and it would have been easier for Him to keep my soul in His Heaven.


What is a sol?  

It is a note,   

A note and more,  

Salt is the cornerstone laid in the base of your home

To be prayed for, to be salted, to be sanctified, to be saved,  

What is salt is a  note and not only,  

It's prayer of yours


I found a job as a web designer but to stay in Canada  was hard spiritually


In March 2008, my children and I returned to Russia ,then my husband arrived.


In Russia, the husband began to adjust to the former person, in the heart of only work and nothing else


Сопротивлялась , держала душу которую любил Господь, 


I wanted my children to be in  my heart and this love for Christ to continue to live in me


In 2011, Sveta divorced her second spouse and ran away to a monastery. Because during their marriage, the first wife of the ex-husband died, she loved her husband but Sveta was a mistress, he chose her.


I filed for divorce , on the same day , the spouse comes home with him the spirit, and begins to spiritually put pressure on my head, invade my spiritual field "attack",I begin to pray the spirit departs , when I stop the spirit attacks , my soul is simply removed from the body, I cry, I'm scared, I pray the spouse looks , I want to run out of the apartment, the ex-husband blocks my way, I ask that he would move away , does not move away , the spirit continues to attack , it hurts, I begin to pray, and so for two hours the ex-husband was just watching.

My husband told me to go through life without me now, but I had to pick up the application for divorce, the next day.

The spiritual vertex of the head was broken


I worked as a physical education teacher at school


There is a lot to make in the world,

But I came to the church


In 2014, I went to my cousin Svetlana Chernyshova, in married  Fokina, to the village of Zhabry in the Pskov region, she had already lived for 3 years at the Church of the Mother of God according to the monastic charter together with my Mother (God rest her Soul) and two sisters Nadezhda and Valentina.


I lived with them for 1 month and wanted to stay with them, the decision was very deeply realized. Мother (her kingdom of Heaven) agreed to take me, I even called my family and told them about it


It was very difficult, but I understood that it would be more difficult to save myself  in the world, my husband did not love me,  I was fired from work..


But Vladyka did not bless mysellf, he said "go raise children" until adulthood.


I directed to work at the church


I said, "they don't pay enough there", he told me "well, what can we do"?,


I agreed,  In the church we do not go for money


I went back to my family,

Julia is 16 years old

Stas is 18 years old


In October 2014, I went to work in the refectory of the Alexandra-Nevsky Lavra as a cleaner, I cleaned the refectory and I was paid money for the work.


In the morning, the Secret Service, and then I went to work, "with God you can work in any occupation, " I humbled myself.


But this was for me  continue of my monastic life.


Here I go to this world with my monastic life


I kept my soul, which was  loved a little by Lord God


The church has more love for God, they have a spiritual inner circle ,  in the world everything is very difficult , the 10 commandments are only the first steps, spiritual laws are very important, as well , the Lord didn't break anything, we don't know them..




I came to the Temple and brought Lord God of mine, spiritual wealth of my soul..


I was very high and great the higher the more strength and love. I entered into their world without permit, just got a job in the church as I was told  by priests by Priests of  Pskov region,  and  the priests of Aleksandro-Nevskoy Lavra, knew that I was His monastery, therefore I always prayed to Jesus Chris  since 2007, and they entered  in the golden Palace of my soul,   I brought to the Lavra my spiritual authority, and my Golden Palace turned into  a Christian Temple, as a sign of gratitude, they could make for my and my husband  a real family , as we had a Soviet family, he hated me, but he loved me a little in the temple, I am high and great , he gave me money and  took my potential,  because we have children, but there was  no love between us, they could erect my husband , to make us a real family, like  an example, to be with us in that Temple, to save yourself , but they began to destroy Him and my Christian Temple , they have a anger, fear and envy


And my Lord God became their Lord, and the priests may have felt that there was more of God, they were stronger, and they also tried to keep the soul that the Lord Loved, and the mansion of heaven  become more bigger, but I just worked  as cleaner in this hierarchies  


And priests were afraid, because in spirit they began to love me like Jesus Christ and to hate me like  my husband, i am not  from ecclesiastical family..


There, in the mansion of heaven we are the people of Christ, we are equal before Him, but only before Him, I think they have the same rules, .THIS IS SOME KIND OF outcome, some kind of communism that we all strive for what we must come to. But here there is only a hierarchy


"This is the other side of their life."


Occupations, social networks, everyone is equal before God but only before Him


But we are not connected

and there is no bridges between us, only the love of Jesus Christ

He unites everyone by moving up vertically

- his love for God of his Father

horizontally - our social networks

our level of our  love for Him

 There is the cross, is where the center of your heart?


Their should have given to my husband just a little of the love that they had, to the Lord of my God, they should have taken him to my heaven and made a family from us ,


They were going to bring me down from heaven to earth of my husband,

They spiritually entered my family and began to achieve their goal


We don't need, to be in happiness. the Priests have their own families

They didn't want to make us a happy family,

and save my husband,

Forgive him,

Fix him,

Recover him.

We are happy and my husband enter into  the holy Priesthood but he is not a priest.


But the husband does not love you from heart to heart and in Russia everything is according to the husband. Если тебя  муж нелюбит то нет у тебя очага семейного , есть конечно но ты там просто служанка If your husband does not love you, then you don't have a fireplace , family, house  you are just a servant there


I would must to leave my family and go to my mother’s home, she loved me a little.


I didn't leave, I continued to live in the family because I am a MOTHER too.


What is a mother in Russia ?


She is the mansion

She gives a heart

She loves

She is an example

She is the source

She's the real mute


My source –this is I am and knowledge , about Jesus Christ, this is my love to Him


And in the Church, the Spiritual circle  composed so, the head are  priests and the rest should be a part of them, which they should rule, for the glory of God fathers of  their


To continue work for the church I would must  to close up the source of my love


But I could not close up  my source ,

I wanted to live  by love and not only by duty

I would have been given God of  their father,

They would have freed me from the yoke-grand of my Jesse Christ and would have given  yoke of their


They offered bread and fish

They were gentle with their flock, they pitied them

because they could not love

And the people loved them in advance,

Priests served the God of the fathers, theirs or ours?

They took upon themselves their cross, but did not enter into it,

But we open the windows and doors of their hearts and showed  the God  fathers of ours

And the priests showed themselves, showed their true attitude

( contemptuous) to the flock of theirs



I couldn't stop going to Secret Services because I felt the opposition.

I have not done anything bad specially. I was save my love , and I care about it.

If I stopped going, The Christianity was quickly taken from me, 


How many Women - unknown soldiers, who had freed from their great love, the priests just pass all her love to their wives, And there is no link to her heart that loved So much. And some could not change their lives, went into their cross-love and lived there and now  they in the underground prison, because  no one prays to them, we don’t know they, it is God  fathers' of ours



We are reborn

We Are Forgiven,

But we're still alive,

We are carrying the body the soul the spirit of  Jesus Christ

The Temple within us ,


Now You are in the Temple and what is there..

The home of God given to  churchmen ,

Father, are you the Son of God? Here's  mom of mine

The Priests is the owner of the House of God ,

This is the House of God the Fathers, His. and not of mine

Stick is vertical, do you love Christ?

Stick is horizontal, are you love flock that is herd of yours?


Father, are you the Son of God? Here's mom of mine

Earthly care is given to you,

Take care of yourself, teach if you can, dedicate, keep yourself , but don't close others


We are closed from Christ by the churchmen, and it is profitable for them to rule us in order to control our minds and souls, for the glory of the God of their fathers, but the God fathers of theirs   is not the God fathers of ours


There are two ways to God as they say:


 These are " those who don’t saw but those who are from Him"

They are strong and even stronger by God ..


“ repair for your sins, do the deed” " the Lord will see and put His heart into you


But I continued to go to the Services of Christ and follow His commandments

You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your strength

Love your neighbor as yourself the rest of their derivatives


и вот приносила я сердце своё каждое утро в течении 5 лет на службу. .   


On this State of Love the kingdom of Heaven was built


I came,  as to a terrible judgment


But she should not be in the Temple, especially in our hearts. She is an abyss


Investigation to the core of my soul


But the Lord is our Father higher and stronger

But we live in the world, not in monastery, we are worldly


Jesus Christ came into the world



Breaking the tenth commandment , «do not envy» or «You shall not covet»



We must serve the Lord God,  He  must been always in our mind and do everything for the Glory of His

And priests  must keep His House and  bring pray to Him


Priests make sure that the people of the world must not be spiritually superior to them.

Because , «we don’t love each other and don’t pray a lot»

And we say, living in the world, the main thing is not to do evil more.

Jesus Christ is an common "PIE with love"

You have a specific task, take care of the temple,

keep history, teach, educate if you can,

Save yourself, but do not arise spiritually at the expense of others


I brought my prayers to the monastery of my Jesus Christ  and unwittingly I became spiritually  highest  all among the saints of the Monastery of Alecsandro-Nevskoy Lavra , Plus my physical exercises and fasting, and I am spiritually highest all , all hearts is mine


Priests began to be wary:

• our love, want to use for their own purposes



The priests began to investigate. Where is I  from


The mother is alone, she  goes to  the Church on the big holidays only


 And here is the Church of the Intercession of the Mother of God where I only lived for a month. A cousin of Sveta, she serves at the  church she is our, ecclesiastical, she can be trusted and my heart,  we can to pass on to her


Ей была отдана я, потому что после того как И.Х. меня спас.. Я жила и хотела что бы во мне жила, моя любовь к нему.  


Their decided to pass on my heart, my Easter mood, to my cousin Sveta, and she doesn't mind...


Easter mood ahead of Easter time   

Easter mood is  in the middle of Great Lent   

Easter mood is a good mood,   

Easter mood heart aflame

let be forever  

* * Eastertime-Easter Time


To honor her,  and pressed on me, to my former level


Priests began to make out a hero  of her and a traitor out of me (an apostate, an infidel) just because she serve in the church


All my "silk" was given to a servant of the Church, because only the servants of the Church can have such love for Jesus Christ. and I stole this spiritual treasure..

And then, everything that I got by pray for 9 years.

Тhey  wanted to make her and then pass me heart to their person, I am for them, a stranger, not church, worldly.


In the summer, in July, we went to my father's cemetery in Fishnevo , on the way we stopped in Zhabry to visit Sveta, they had a new resident Galina

The nun Nadezhda said about me ," Well, did you bring her to us»,


But I continued to go to the Holy Church of the Alexander Nevsky Lavra,

Who does she is?, I was misunderstood, condemned, and began to ruin


How much was the feeling (joy about Christ) and now I can't even feel it my heart was cut in two


My husband is spiritually changed, only we raise children together, He was given a blessing for a separate life, because I snore, but this is not so, we began to live separately.


Stas moved into our former room


Me and Yulia in the living room, husband in the kitchen


Stas did not like our two-bed sofa, he took it down to the trash


I was very worried. I raised the two-bedroom sofa to the 4th floor, put it on my side of the large room, but I never found the side walls, of course, my life was already destroyed, but for me it was just an artifact.

Stas was also spiritually changed


On the weekend I went

in Zhabry, there were many guests from Porokhov and also from St. Petersburg-Ira and her friends.

I came back to home, my sofa is still not there, the garbage can is empty


I tried to talk about my life with my cousin Sveta, but she avoided the conversation. But the next time we met, she still said that the mother of "Mikhail" (God rest her soul) freed me from the "charm"


The next day, after the trip, it was painful to take a deep breath, pain in the lower abdomen, instead of strength, pain, I couldn't even walk, I had to lie down for 3 days.


But I continued to go to the Holy Church of the Alexander Nevsky Lavra


We became more estranged  from each other


We asked for a blessing for a divorce,  but the spiritual father of the husband, Father Maxim, said that it was a SIN, that we do not give a blessing for a divorce      


And I found myself in a level where love turns into indifference,


My husband taked care of the children only by giving them money, but also received their gratitude, I kept the house in order and cooking


I keep my soul, I just go to church services, and this love helped me in all good things.


I come from the Church Service,

I am sublime and airy,

I open my Door,

Good morning Saying to you,

Peace to this house,

My Peace I will Give  you,,


But only after the Service I can talk

to the children from soul to soul, but it's not easy for them,

I was in Heaven and now on Earth.

Now my cross  is wooden


End of Service,

The Song of the Psalter,

Bows and bright eyes,

Open sky of domes,

And you can hear the quiet breathing of the icons


And again below of zero.

Where only  the money and words

Can pass from the heart to heart


They took off the silk

They took off the matting

And again  naked ... I


They and we  

We and they  

They're not we  

We are not They 


Children, Money is our Business,  

And they are stronger with God  


They will go to God Heaven    

We will go to the children Adobe


Children are our future  


They are ready to give their lives for the Lord   

We also...  


We wanted to build a paradise on earth  

But We couldn't do it without love  

We lived by this idea                 


Peace to the world  

The world is at war  


A stranger among his own 

His own among a strangers


But I continue to go to the Holy Church of the Alexander Nevsky Lavra


If it were a simple worldly organization, but it is a Christian-Orthodox church


Me and husband  were in a distance but  In order  to save family, I gave  half of my part of the apartment to my husband, but it was too late, he was already another person


In Canada, I received the New Testament and returned to Russia, they give the Old Testament, they began to judge for the sins of my youth and look at my mother to find out who I am, whether there is property, prosperity, acquired spiritual dignity, they take away


Big and happy we enter into the church,

repent and bow down for the sins the parents of yours


And they are doing judgment, spiritually they were cast down

from Heaven to Earth,

 they were looking for a foundation,

Your husband doesn't love you, and we can't, the reason was found


It isn’t a sin, don’t love in the Orthodox church,

they are saints according to the law,

The world is in sin , and we are lying in it,- they say


We live in the world, we are worldly

But the Lord of our Father, is Higher and Stronger

And Christ came into the world


we are telling you, we are telling you,

your word is not alive,

it does not live in us


Violation of the Tenth Commandment do not be jealous

The world-we must keep the Lord God in mind

And church should served and lift Him


Stretching   helped me, I just breathed out the hate of my husband, which he got from churchmen and their wives and his siblings. We have not lived together for a long time. We only grow children



I was hired from the  work for reasons beyond their control


I couldn't work in the office , I needed fresh air. I went to work at the post office, the work is physically difficult , but it's easier with prayer:

Hail Mary, Blessed Virgin Mary

The Lord is with YOU,

blessed are you in women

and blessed is the fruit of the womb

I gave birth to YOUR Saviour,

Thou art our souls..


Came after delivery to the post office, there was more God in to myself



this state  by itself was passing on to the staff.  


Before the work, I went to church in the Alexander-Nevsky Lavra, so I saved my soul


but the team was not happy, in order to continue working it had to become a part of them, and the most wonderful in order to manage myself and I was a part of Jesus Christ



Fired...  the reason was found


The sisters with whom I lived at the Church of the Protection of the Mother of God did not want to take me back, because it was difficult to close me ..



Sveta is a good person - a holy soul, outside, but she does not love the spirit, but takes away grace. But they say, Spiritual treasure a thief does not steal and aphids undermine”.



Spirit and soul at opposite sites,

it happens to everyone,

when a person comes to the temple,

And there is no disagreement between spirit and soul,

when honey is on the tongue,

but on the heart, stone


We did not enter yet, we are on the doorstep not in the Temple.

And then the whole world is a theater, and we are actors in it.

Just a perfect picture and not life, on another site its, jealousy and anger

When sincere, the heart is the head


MEANS THERE IS NO SECOND BOTTOM How to achieve harmony of soul and spirit when everything is sincere, otherwise we remain in the doorstep, and we will not enter the temple HIS "On the tongue of honey and on the heart FEEL THE SECOND BOTTOM."


Love the enemy?

Would you love your loved one

When he's stronger and higher


I turned to Him but it is difficult to go now, destroyed by resistance, and faith in justice and now there is snot where love should be and my left hand hurts


When two years have passed, I had to go to the monastery the children are students they need me, I continue to raise children, (mostly I was at home cleaning and cooking, went to the temple and prayed for the family ) it was hard to leave the house


I listened to the sermon to Christ, Said "In Truth"

turned  around and went the way of my life to Him

Or is this the fate of only the chosen ones?


And now, resentment, guilt, emptiness,

do not forgive anything

to shorten the heart and soul

God will forgive,

He forgives everyone,

He lets go of all debts

The region of my heart

Resentment and there should be love

You will forgive and it will not be



Priests influence me through my family , my ex-husband keeps me away from himself, goes to church alone, says that it is impossible to talk about me together , we begin to sort things out. Through him, they begin to ruin me spiritually, and everyone said yes, this is right, well, she stole this heart


In May 2018, we divorced by mutual consent , I saw extreme disrespect from my spouse because I didn't earn enough


My daughter's soul was badly damaged, she studied at a construction and architectural college was all about architecture, a big program, it was very difficult, they paid 48 thousand per trimester for 3 years, the ex-husband decides not to pay for her studies..


Yulia is crying I can't work on the computer/  she was given  another soul, she says I don't like the profession.


For Yulia, it was a strong psychological trauma, she studied so much and as a result, she has no education.


I decided to raise funds of 48 thousand rubles myself to pay for the trimester, ask my relatives for 10,000 thousand rubles each

As a result

* Tanya Tarasova said there is no money;

* Aunt Lipa said she can't;

* Maxim said he will try to find;

* Mom said it would help;

* Fira Nikolaevna Tarasova didn't even open the door ;


Later, she even turned to the Psychoneurological Dispensary No. 3 of the Krasnogvardeysky district


And she went to work as a saleswomen at Watsons


Yulia is being dismantled, everything holy is being taken away for their own, they have taken her head and now they are making a sinner out of her.. (The head is her profession, architecture) The father whom she loved betrayed her, and relatives on his side.


Yulia's was  soul enchanted  to her father, and she loved him very much (he took her love), but he pushed her away and said: "Yulia, I give you money, go to the store, and she went and bought something for herself," and money is the equivalent of love for her, and He returns her soul to Yulia through money-love;


Relatives followed the bad example of the clergy began to turn the children against me, (I earn little money) I began to hear you are interfering with life, from my husband, they say go live with your Мother


In May 2018, we divorced by mutual consent , I saw extreme disrespect from my spouse because I didn't earn enough


The family of my ex-husband's sister Tatiana Tarasova


He is Alexander Vakhabov, exalted, refined, a genius, a Muslim, Skinny as " koshchey"


She is Tatiana Tarasova,   «his sheep, insidious, kindness itself from the outside, bile flows over the edge on her fellow slaves.»


Children Anna and Nikita are their salvation, everything is for them


My children Yulia and Stanislav are expendable for them, Anna and Nikita have the souls of my children


And Staska under Nikitka, who works on the stock exchange, takes away his Si-energy at night..


Stas is 22 years old, he is worried that he does not have a girlfriend of his life , only a dad who takes his feelings, gives indifference to life



Me and my ex-husband are the creators, founders of this company


Now continues to work, my brother Maxim is the director there, located close to the Lavra But the staff of the PKS immediately took me badly


Also, after the service, I went to PetroКomplektService , i  wanted to find my new place there,  but I do not  want  to become the same as I was before Canada, all day long to work, as result “to search  and do not  find” I mean God


The priests realized that it was not so easy to "push  me off  the path" and began to spiritually invade this organization , the staff of this company just hate me, without any reason.


employees of Petrokomplektservice, Kovalenko N. Lapteva N. Bezgodova N. To transfer my spiritual wealth - my spiritual family to them, and they do not mind. 




I am divorced. T­he church where we got married and went on Sundays divorced us.. after 20 years of family life, I give part of my apartment to my spouse, but my spouse and I were divorced, nevertheless


For love, I got , God knows.

Love the enemy but the enemy has become even greater

Pray for your enemies, bless them.

Вut in a world that is not united by a great idea there are different laws now


RESULT of  the work of  priesthood

• Children, seeing such an attitude towards their mothers, cannot understand that going on , children receive money  from their father and disrespect to me


• they are fired me  from work because  (they wanted me to become a part of them, and I am a part of Jesus Christ )


• I can't get a job by  my specialty as PE Teacher

• Daughter Julia leaves college six months before graduation

• After Julia left the College, the Spouse passed the 1c Professional exam



They are taking away my destiny,

I’ was a mother of two children. had good family, they give me another destiny ,

They opened up the casket of my soul through Jesus Christ and put their own order in it.


They want me to forget my history, Jesus Christ, to become my old self,

Because I'm not  serve church, I live among you in the world, but with a very circumcised heart, now it's only in my loins again,

but exercise helps me.


Since Sveta my cousin  is a saint, through myself, she was helped by the priests of the Alexandro-Nevsky Lavra and their wives to create a Heaven , “For my account”, where the hearts of  their of their wives and the most powerful chosen people in the past , because she serves for the church. And my domestic church, there were all this hearts  is destroyed, reined ,this is my family but not at all


Once, when Sveta came to St. Petesburg, she said that nun Miphila had freed me from "charm" which was not true. It was a great gift I received from Canada. It was all my spiritual efforts.  But I am still spiritually   alive.

Being the original source that is constantly ruined. I and my children


The church oppresses me, they have entered spiritually into my family and do not love me , have turned my life into anything, they try to disqualify me, remove me, first spiritually then physically, because I hinder many: 14 people and only those I know, they are given my source in  abode of theirs .

They ruined of me, they “dug a pit for themselves and got there”,

I mean, then deeper the pit, the worse it is for them.

But the church does not want to admit that with me a secular woman, did so badly


The secular people are not enter in the Church, it is the flock for the Shepherd, and the flock is his children whom the Shepherd does not love, because in the world again love is only in the loins now...

Secular people in the church are not included, they are only in the narthex "herd" - priests feed them, the question is who to whom.


I want to return to Canada where I was reborn


All this is from the field of psychology we are realists we need facts and evidence


Psychology, the science of the soul and what is the soul?

This  is our conscience, a spark of God, a drop of the Virgin


And why then this Hierarchy, to whom they pray,  let’s show us your God


God is an invisible, all-powerful spirit , We pray to him and He comes, Heals and we believe He is in us


Aleksandro Nevsky Lavra knew me as a cleaner, but as I wrote, this job was for me not  for money in the temple, mainly for women, only for cleaning


As I have already written, I could not stop going to secret services because I felt opposition, if  I stopped going, I thought, then my Christianity was quickly taken from me, and transferred to their  person , my cousin Svetlana


When I was fired from the Lavra, I summed up the period of my life:


·        They firmly believe in the bad, then they look for a reason for punishment and do not find it

·        Investigation to the depths of the soul, cut down at the root, the foundation of the earth, put an equal sign and say believe it, it's you.

·        There is no joy for a person, They take away spiritual wealth, gold of soil,

  • They open the casket of our soul take everything from there that their want and try to put their own order there
  • They invade the family, thereby ruining it, for theirs people.


And we live in the world, we are not servants of the church, we are not yours people , just like Jesus Christ, He cames to the world


For a period of six years in the monastery at the church of the "Intercession of the Mother of God"

* The nun Nadezhda got married , is now expecting a child

* Nun Galina lives in the world ,

* Mikhail's mother, aka the nun Anna, died

• The nun Alexandra came,

now only my sister Sveta (she is also a nun Kristina, a nun Olga, a tinderbox Fatina) and a nun Alexandra live at the church of the Intercession of the Mother of God, the village of" Zhabry "of the Pskov region.


Встречаете по одёжки по специальности, а провожаете по чему? 


The Lord is high,

He descended into hell

And he ascended to his Father

Have you ever lived in hell?

Everyone must have their own place,

You  took your place, already

And we don't mind , but only with God

And you have taken God from us,

He gave his life  for our life  and you, ours  life give for your own life

Who is your God?


Close up, pretend, put on your vestments

Before they figure you out


But better

Put on the vestments and believe that it is you


Parishioners are counted to the monastery by specialty


Then everything unnecessary for work is taken away to the adobe of the church,

They leave :

·        A sip of faith;

·        A little memory of children;

  • A little joy, surprise by nature; 


In the world, spiritual wealth is taken away, everything is equal, and this is our Church, parish;


our  goals did not match , I was saved already, them need  to be saved yet


In August 2020, to work as an assistant teacher, she must receive a decision of the medical psychiatric commission.


When I applying to the neuropsychiatric dispensary N5 at the place of residence, I passed several tests, and began to fill out a questionnaire of 350 questions.


I was tired it was the end of the day I get hungry I want to buy some food.

Since I was carrying a questionnaire and a helium pen in my left hand, the questionnaire was accidentally crossed out with a pen, I asked for a clean questionnaire, they told me that it was okay, the answers could still be made out, I continued


I answered 115 questions Then I asked if I could continue tomorrow, since it was evening, there was no time, they told me you can,


I filled out by 115 questions every day in my free time


The next day, the deputy chief physician for medical work, refused to give to me a  medical decision and offered me to undergo treatment in a day hospital,


When I ask what basis doctor has, to made this decision,  she said, "because you filled out the questionnaire for three days," I said, " With your permission."


The next day I was examined at the neuropsychiatric dispensary No. 3 of the Admiralty district, the doctor made an encephalogram and asked me a few questions. I have received a certificate for work.


I came back to the dispensary No. 5 to ask where my medical card came from in the dispensary , I have never asked for help in the dispensary

The manager began to ask about the family, which was not relevant to my question, I did not open the information. Two other doctors were present.


 But after I felt (psychological influence) namely, fear and not confidence, I had to say quite harshly that they were wrong, that they did not give me a certificate for work, I never asked for help at a neuropsychiatric dispensary, the card was falsified.

I was asked to wait in the hall . While they confer "what to do with me", I said I had no time to wait, and left.


The church should reveal to us all the information we are waiting for. The 21st year has begun, the 21st century has come into force, the world is changing, the Soviet camp is going to the past, only the Orthodox world remains (but the Christian word has recently  been shortened), there is no love for Him in the temple, we are all very low for His love, only Ours for Him and these are laws and rules, we do not know about them, the 10 commandments are the main bricks, and what does Orthodoxy mean without Christianity


We are waiting for changes, Waiting, but they begin to affect on our mind and soul, goals are blurred, priorities are changing. "They will lead with the right, we are right. They will lead with the left, we are the left." I ask for help, set a goal and go forward to it.


Now my abode is very simple, There is a court

There is my prayer, which is very badly, because I am low and very much above me.. and there's also stretching exercises.


You can say that it just seems to you, but if it is,

then everything around us is just a mirage,

he  does not see us


In the definition of "not subject to this court", because it is not visible?, they are saints, it is not a sin not to love and everything is built on this facts, but we have evidence



Not fulfilling the duties of the church to a member of the church, I was baptized in 1978, son and daughter in 1999


·     * Failure to fulfill the duties of the church to a member of the church (I prayed, hoped, believed, endured, the Fathers of the Alexander Nevsky Lavra condemned me without recognizing me);

·     * I was divorced from my spouse (despite the fact that I gave my ex-spouse part of my apartment after 20 years of living together);

·     * The recognition of a church marriage as invalid takes place only a year later, but the priest Homa did not divorce me spiritually, he impales Mother Michala (Heaven rest her);

·     * Daughter Yulia was deprived of her profession, left college 6 months before graduation, relatives refused to pay for tuition,

·     • They don't take me to work in my specialty;

·     * Son Stas is 22 years old, he worries that he has no girlfriend in life, only a dad who takes his feelings, gives indifference to life;

·      This opposition, gave to my children such a "mess" with their attitude to me, they did not know to whom  believe, the wives and mothers of the priests, enter spiritually into my family and turned the children against me, so that I would not have a fireplace, a family, because I entered into their world without permit , I was very high and great the higher the more strength and love. I entered into their world without permit, just got a job in the church as I was told  by priests by Priests of  Pskov region,  and  the priests of Aleksandro-Nevskoy Lavra, knew that I was His monastery, therefore I always prayed to Jesus Chris  since 2007, and they entered  in the golden Palace of my soul,   I brought to the Lavra my spiritual authority, and my Golden Palace turned into  a Christian Temple, as a sign of gratitude, they could make for my and my husband  a real family , as we had a Soviet family, he hated me, but he loved me a little in the temple, I am high and great , he gave me money and  took my potential,  because we have children, but there was  no love between us, they could erect my husband , to make us a real family, like  an example, to be with us in that Temple, to save yourself , but they began to destroy Him and my Christian Temple , they have a anger, fear and envy


·          The relatives, seeing the bad example of the clergy , followed him

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They did not want to make us a happy family and save the ex-husband


They divorced us and took our love for themselves, they have their own families


На праздник крещение Господне я провела вторую Акцию

Потому что  я многим очень мешаю,

Во время проповеди

Я сказала громко  Что в вас нет духа истины , мою жизнь за свою отдаёте , себя любите больше .Охранник подошёл и вывел  из храма .

Пока мы шли по направлению к выходу, он сказал что «всё ещё только начинается». Перед  тем как выйти перекрестилась. охраннику не понравилось, он стал меня грубо выталкивать. 

Первую акцию я провела в декабре. Во время проповеди я сказала что,

" вы разрушили мне семью, я подам на вас в суд"


Но  Христос не виноват!



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